rewind

You want it, then you need it. But then you need it more than you can have it and the cogs break down trying to cope with the demand. The surplus of demand results in a need for greater supply and so you sit there waiting, waiting, waiting for the moment to come when it is fine to want again, to need again; because this desire, this passion, is worth more than anything else you've ever encountered. And that might not be okay, but right now, you have no other option. And the desire takes over. And even when the timing is not right, even when you should be waiting - you take the plunge.

And it's all just a big mistake.